the Cross before me, the world behind me, no turning back, no turning back

I don't understand how You answer all of my prayers all at the same time. I don't understand Father. It doesn't make sense. It really shows how powerful You are.


How do You make me cry?
How do You break me so easily?
How do You give me so much faith and hope?
How do You speak to me when I thought I didn't hear you?
How do You reveal yourself to me when I thought I was blinded?


I finished reading Galatians last night and You spoke to me. You gave me so much encouragement.

I really need to get out of my Christian bubble and start talking to the non-Christians again. I need to stop being a hypocrite and sleep. I need to work for the Lord and not for men. I need to see my sins so that I could repent and produce good fruit. I am not worthy of these words that You soaked me in.

Thanks for the sermon too. (1 Corinthians 11: 17- 34) This morning I got a lot of time to reflect on myself and how I presented myself before You. You revealed my sin to me and convicted me of it. I sinned against so many people. I thought I was Loving others but I wasn't. I tried Loving others without Loving You first. Thank You for letting me cry and see my sin.

Thank You for making the sermon really personal too. I remember in my testimony for baptism I used the lyrics:

"the Cross before me, the world behind me

no turning back, no turning back"

It really made me think about not giving up, but persevering in my struggles to become stronger in my faith for You. I thought it was really a message from You to me too haha because the lyrics have a lot of definition to me.

Thank You Father. Thank You Jesus. Thank You Spirit.