And this is when...

pride kicks in...

after I share my testimony infront of the public.

I pray to be humble.

judgement kicks in...

after I share the Gospel and don't understand why people don't accept it.

I pray to be even more humble

being hypocritical kicks in...

after I tell others how to live but don't do the same for my own.

I pray to be even more than more humble

Prayer: Father make me humble and not to doubt. I pray for Love to Love You back. I pray for Love to Love Your children. I pray for Love to Love Your people.

Physical Mediums

How many times...

do we look at ourselves when we dress up and compare with others?
do we look at photos and search for how great we look first before others?
do we look at others and compare them with ourselves?

how selfish.

no love in this at all...

How many times...

do we think about what we say before we talk?
do we think about what we type before we comment?
do we think about what we write before we send?
do we think about how others would feel before we post something online?

how selfish.

no love in this at all...

How many times...

do we message others and say "how are you?"
do we reply to others when they message you?
do we say nothing because we neglect how other people exist?

how selfish.

no love in this at all...

If that person were Jesus would you treat them the same?

Jesus says:
"For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me. [...] I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the lease of these brothers of mine, you did for me."

(Matthew 25: 34 - 36,40)

Self Rambling

Praise: I am able to say Jesus' name again!
I had the opportunity to talk to M.Shum this weekend. I thank You for just making our bonds tighter. I feel like we turned from binding to bonding. I think I can talk to him easier now. Yay!
Praise God for Erik and Frosh Cell! I don't know if we're continuing this ministry next year but it is bringing a lot of non-Christians to knowing God and knowing Christ. It seems more like outreach to me than deep fellowship, although sometimes we have those nights of deep conversations and discussions and confessions and etc...
My floormate is going to church with K.Lam and I. I'm not sure which one he is going to go to consistently though....Creekside/Harvest Chapel. I'm going to ask him. It was also kind of sad 'cuz I gave him the Bible that I was going to give to my sister for her birthday present. Oh well...he needs one more desperately than my sister (she has a Bible already)? I don't know how to tell him that homosexuality is a sin. This is difficult because it is different from rebuking. I don't know how to talk to non-Christians. AHHH!

Struggles: Struggling to live by faith and not by emotions. Struggling to love by faith and not emotions. Struggling to not expect much from others. Struggling with reading the Bible. Struggling with praying. Struggling with desire for prayer. Struggling with desire for reading the Bible. Struggling with desire for God. Struggling with talking to others. I haven't been in the mood of communicating with others recently. It isn't a good thing because I feel like I'm pushing people away. I should be joyful. I should be proclaiming my faith to the world everyday and take up the challenge that Tyler said during Grad dinner as my daily lifestyle/habit. I have been feeling moody and silent and sleepy... Struggling with sleep...

Commitment: Outreach. I found my testimony from baptism by water and skimmed through it. I found my testimony from baptism by Spirit and skimmed through it.

Bible: Stuck on 1Corinthians 5-6. I don't understand at all. so confused....

Books: 2 more chapters of Crazy Love!!! Blue Print need to get through prayer!!!

Prayer: Father am I walking with You? or calling You to walk with me?
Jesus, I am honestly nothing without You. Can You give me Love to Love you back? Can You make me desire for You more and more each day?
Thank You Holy Spirit! Flow through my body, my veins, my spirit, my soul, my heart.

Sleep

I know it isn't early for most people but I'm sleeping early today! Yay! 1:30AM : )

Thanks for prayers

Ambushed

I am not scared

I am being attacked

It is painful to not feel the Spirit

It is painful to not be able to shout Jesus' name.

Pray for me?

one day as an atheist...

I tried living without God for one day. It was difficult to not pray and it was difficult to not read scripture or remember God's words. I felt really empty without God. I felt really empty without Jesus. I didn't plan to go to the Jesus Week dinner 'cuz I had a stats test (which went really bad) which ended at 7:30pm. I didn't plan to go to the Charity Ball 'cuz I thought it was stupid. I didn't go to the Arts Council event 'cuz I didn't want to listen to some veteran from some war. J. Chin text me the day before and invited me to C4C. I was planning to go home and vacuum and clean and do laundry and stuff and read after my stats test. However, J. Chin text me again during my stats test so I decided to attend the last half hour of C4C. They had worship for the last half hour. It was really dark when I entered MC2065 which meant I couldn't find J. Chin. There was one person on worship. She started singing and playing her guitar and I started crying. (I was kinda glad that I was alone in the dark and I knew barely anyone there so nobody saw me crying haha) anyway... I realized that I couldn't live without God and without Jesus.

Jesus IS Lord.

I read 1 Corinthians 13: 2-3. I honestly have nothing.

Prayer: Give me Love so I can Love You back. I have nothing.

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Saturday Western

I woke up really late today. It is probably a result of me sleeping really late last night. AH! This is so bad! Why can't I control my sleeping habits? I'm so bad....

My whole body felt sore when I woke up. My biceps were sore from carrying my bag to London yesterday. I vividly remember struggling to get to the bus stop since my baggage was too heavy (I really need to go work out after this trip) My back was sore because of the way I was sleeping last night. I'm really thankful that God has given me a roof over my head and a bed to sleep on during this trip.

I contacted C.Tso and went to lunch with her. Hehe Bi.Leung lent me her bus pass for London so I got around the whole city free : ). I believe I went around the whole city today with C.Tso haha.

I'm thankful that I had Bi.Leung's bus pass today.

C.Tso and I went to Manna Grill for lunch. The Korean food was really yummy there. I had a pork bone soup. It took me an hour and a half to pick out all the meat out of the bone. It was kinda annoying 'cuz I felt like I had carpal tunnel syndrome after I finished eating. I'm thankful that God provided me with a place to eat today and eating one of my favourite dishes.

Dream Boy called after and asked to work at the library. I was using C.Tso's phone at the moment. Dream Boy asked if K.lam was with me, but she was stuck at Brian's place since she didn't have a way of transportation. We were trying to plan for a way for K.lam to come to library. I was on C.Tso's phone with one ear and my phone on the other talking to H.Fung. (I swear my head received triple the radiation at that moment) K.lam was online talking to Dream Boy. Haha it really reminded me of broken telephone. K.lam said that she wasn't going anymore so we ended that 4 way conversation but C.Tso and I agreed to go to the library.

After lunch, C.Tso and I went to Starbucks and I got a drink I believe it is a "Java Chip Frappucino". Starbucks was having a promo this weekend. They were giving out an extra treat at the side for buying a drink. I got this "Rocky Road" lollipop thing, which I gave to Dream Boy when I got to the Taylor Library. I was really thankful for C.Tso just bringing me out during the day...and night haha. God I'm so thankful that You let me catch up with her and talk about our spiritual lives. I really saw how much You have made her grown. God You're amazing! I'm thankful that You have given her the desire to reach out to Your children : )

C.Tso and I bussed down to the library and worked there for approximately 3 hours with Dream Boy. I got to meet a lot of people there. I was really thankful that God gave me a brother and a sister to accompany me during the day. I video chatted with my dad and brother. I was talking to them about teaching English in China. My dad said that I wasn't allowed to go because we aren't financially capable since I was going to HK in May so I there wasn't enough money to buy a ticket in July or August (considering that the gas prices have rocketed due to Libya). I studied Chinese after.

We went downtown London for dinner after at Moxies. The food was pretty good. I shared about my problem with sharing the Gospel to homosexuals and we kinda discussed it. The discussion changed topics to "completely ridding yourself of sin". Hence, the dilemma is not solved yet. I was really glad that we talked about the other topic though. I'm really thankful to have conversations about God with my brother and sister who I haven't talked to for a really long time.

We bussed back home after. It was a big adventure. C.Tso got dropped off at home first. I decided to try healing on the bus, so I prayed for her. I'm not sure how she is right now but I thought it was cool to try it out. Dream Boy and I transferred to a different bus.

While we were at the bus stop, I was observing the people around me. Most of them were looking in the direction that the bus would come. I kinda clicked in my head about our expectation of Jesus coming. I wonder, do we view Christ coming at any moment of the day like the bus? or are we passive? Do we expect Christ to come soon? I wonder, are we like the people at the bus stop? Do we always hope for the bus, Christ, to come A.S.A.P.?

Gosh! This is what God has been revealing to me for a while now. I'm not sure what it means...

When Dream Boy and I got on the bus we were transferring to, we were trying to figure out which stop to get off. When we did get off the bus, we were confused and kinda lost. It was scary but luckily we got of the the right stop. Thank You Lord! It was nice of Dream Boy to walk me home tonight because he did live away from Bi.Leung's place. Thank You Father for a brother to walk me home during the night...even at 11:30PM xP

Today felt like brother and sister day.

Tomorrow is Sunday, another busy day. I'm going to Harvest(London style). No worries, I'm God's lil' trooper.

Friday Western

I arrived at Western at approximately 6:50PM. K.lam and I went to some mall in London and I got a drink at the food court. Bi.Leung drove K.lam and B.Ma and I to the Western campus to attend ACF.

ACF was really small today. I don't know where everyone went. It was probably because of midterm week and people visiting places. There was Bible Study today. We were studying on prayer. It wasn't on a specific passage though like in CCF. It was more about an over all topic. We went through Daniel 6:10, James 4:3 and Matthew 6:9-13.

Something that really spoke to me was something that I was struggling with earlier on this year "we concentrate on how to get rid of a sin instead of concentrating on the prize which is building on our relationship with God". I remember I had an internal battle with in myself and sometimes I felt like I would puke or something from this. I couldn't concentrate during lectures and praying. Sometimes we think about how we could be transformed instead of how God will transform us through know how to Love Him. From the Bible study, I was reminded that it is not by what we do that will remove our sins because we cannot remove our sins. Only God can remove our sins through His Son.

I also learned about modern day healing. It was so cool! I met this guy called Willy and he told me about this time he went with his family to China for outreach. His whole family became sick during the missions trip. His brother had diarrhea and a fever so Willy spent 2-3 hours pray for his brother so that his fever would go away and it did after he prayed. The next day he got sick and had diarrhea and a really bad headache. He asked his brother to pray for him. His brother replied, "Oh I know you will get better." but he prayed for Willy anyway. His brother put his hand on Willy's head and started praying. After 10 seconds into the prayer the headache went away. SO COOL! SO MUCH FAITH!

The thing that supports this is what happened during and after the Bible Study. I had a major headache during the Bible study. I didn't care about it but it bothered me a lot during worship which was after Bible study. I started praying and asked God to heal my head so I could worship Him solely during worship without thinking about other stuff. After I finished praying I didn't feel pain in my head. SO AMAZING! WOW! HEALING IS REAL!

Haiz...that was an amazing experience!

It was pretty easy talking to people in ACF. They are pretty open. I think they are just shy and don't want to approach you first. haha. I think we need to take the initiative to talk to people if we really want to talk to people. This is something that I'm still working on. Sometimes I get scared or intimidated by others because of their facial expression. It is easier to talk to someone who smiles than frowns or looks angry or worried.

I talked to H.Fung after about the person I wanted to talk to. It was nice to hear about her friendship with that person and a her spiritual life.

Aiya! My headache is back again T ^ T...oh well.

I'm sleeping in G.Lee's room tonight - she is back in Toronto. Bi.Leung has a midterm tomorrow. H.Fung is going to bring me 'round campus tomorrow (I liked the pasta she made today). Their other roommate is in Kingston right now. I didn't meet her yet but I hope I do one day.

I want to go to Kingston and hang out with my cousin. I miss him a lot. I never talked to him about our spiritual lives before but I think I will start emailing him or something haha I want to see how God has been cultivating him.

Anyway...goodnight zZz Big day tomorrow. So much to do and so little time. I'm God's lil' trooper.

Before Western

I'm going to London this weekend. There is a specific person I really want to talk to but it must be God willing so that I could talk to this person. I don't know how to express my concern for this person because the way he thinks is walking with God isn't right or it seems iffy in my eyes.

Gosh! I'm afraid to talk to them though..'cuz I'm scared I would start judging them or getting angry.

I need a heart of prayer.

I need the Holy Spirit.

On the other half of this trip, I'm going to check out their fellowship and say "hi" to a couple of friends and ofcourse study('loo represent!)

Boasting Only in the Cross

Don't Nap

I was reading this article earlier and it kinda reminded me not to take naps when I don't seem to understand what I am doing. I shouldn't sleep but persevere! Only sleep when you know you have finished your task.

hehe...I'm feeling sleepy as I type this out. It is very ironic ><"

I'm a baby

I'm that little baby. The one that can't stop crying because of little problems and failures. I need my Father to help me everyday. I need Him to feed me with the Word. I need Him to guide me in the right direction so that I don't walk the wrong way and hurt myself. I need to hold on to His hand because I can't walk on my own or I will stumble and cry. I need His joy to keep me from crying. I need Him to change my diapers or I will continue to keep my dirty sins near me. I can't cleanse myself, let alone be baptised by Him, without Him or I will drown. I need His protection because I always like to get into danger. I need His attention to answer my baby cries. I need His Love or I will not be satisfied.

I am such a baby, I need my Father.

...without Him, I will die.

R.A.W.R.!

I'm feeling that Joy again! I can't stop smiling at everything even when people are suffering or in sorrow. I feel so much Joy from the Lord. I feel His presence. I can hear Him and see Him. I'm so Joyful!

I can see God through the suffering and pain. Even when people cry, I can't stop smiling. I know I should be more "concerned" looking when I see them but I can't stop smiling. I'm just so happy for their situation because I know that God is molding and transforming them through that situation. Moreover, Satan is attacking and people are persevering in the Lord. Satan knows that we are walking the down the right path so he is trying to tempt us. We are trusting in Jesus. We are crying out the the Lord. What is there not to "Praise the Lord" about? We should be jumping around and loving the Lord with all our heart, soul and mind. We should be dancing. We should be laughing and screaming and yelling. We should be smiling. We should be optimistic.

Rejoice!

RAWR

(Rejoice Always with Robustness)

: D

Prayer: Thank You God! Praise You! Rejoice!

A Taste of Judgement Day

E.Mak sent this to me. It is very eye-opening and very scary and very true. It is a taste of Judgement Day. It is so sad...

Sometimes I think that Jesus is coming later and not very soon but this video really made me think about Christ's second coming. It made me reflect on my sins and my position before God. I sometimes wonder if there are sins that I don't even realize that I have hidden away before God. I'm so scared if I don't know my sins. I need You to reveal it to me. I need to Love You whole heartedly. I don't want to live for men and I don't want to live for the world. I want to Live for You.

Another thought...

Wow...immorality is really a big problem in this world. We can see this through the media we watch and talk about. Oh my dearr...Christ is coming EXTREMELY soon...and this taste of Judgement Day makes me feel sorrow and an urgency to preach to the church and the homosexuals and my floormates.

Why Clothing?

To all those people out there who like fashion and clothes

...

I don't know why but especially girls that I'm not courageous enough to tell them about this...

Sometimes I wonder if girls notice if parts of their body is being exposed in a very explicit and revealing way. Do we think about how the article of clothing is cut and sown together? Do we see what the article of clothing is than what it is "called" or "seen"? For example, low collar shirts. Questions that should come to mind are: What do they reveal? How low is "low"? Is our mind process of wearing a specific style of clothing because of what others wear? Does this affect what we think about our bodies? Do we think that we look "good" in low collar shirts because others look very attractive in low collar shirts?

Doesn't God tell us:

"Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."

(Romans 12:2)

We should ask ourselves:

"How am I bringing glory to God or keeping God's glory by wearing this shirt?"

Well...guys have this problem too but it is more about the "words" and "messages" they allow themselves to wear on their body than the style of the article of clothing.

Actually, to counter my thought above, guys need to watch what they wear too. I don't believe that they should be wearing muscle shirts. (I personally think that it looks extremely unattractive) It is calling others to be attracted to your body instead of your soul and spirit.

I know they talk a lot about this in Proverbs but I don't remember the passages...

Roomies

Gosh! I'm really thankful that God is answering so many prayers. I'm really thankful that He is making my roomies and I closer and He is making their desire for God greater.

He also made it possible for us to eat a meal together yesterday. We haven't had that for a while. It is kinda sad...which makes me think about next year since my roomates and I will be living with three other girls. Will we ever have a meal together, as a family? Will we ever pray together and have random prayer meetings?

I'm praying so...

Prayer: God I thank You for prayer and the ability to pray with others. Thank You Father

the Cross before me, the world behind me, no turning back, no turning back

I don't understand how You answer all of my prayers all at the same time. I don't understand Father. It doesn't make sense. It really shows how powerful You are.


How do You make me cry?
How do You break me so easily?
How do You give me so much faith and hope?
How do You speak to me when I thought I didn't hear you?
How do You reveal yourself to me when I thought I was blinded?


I finished reading Galatians last night and You spoke to me. You gave me so much encouragement.

I really need to get out of my Christian bubble and start talking to the non-Christians again. I need to stop being a hypocrite and sleep. I need to work for the Lord and not for men. I need to see my sins so that I could repent and produce good fruit. I am not worthy of these words that You soaked me in.

Thanks for the sermon too. (1 Corinthians 11: 17- 34) This morning I got a lot of time to reflect on myself and how I presented myself before You. You revealed my sin to me and convicted me of it. I sinned against so many people. I thought I was Loving others but I wasn't. I tried Loving others without Loving You first. Thank You for letting me cry and see my sin.

Thank You for making the sermon really personal too. I remember in my testimony for baptism I used the lyrics:

"the Cross before me, the world behind me

no turning back, no turning back"

It really made me think about not giving up, but persevering in my struggles to become stronger in my faith for You. I thought it was really a message from You to me too haha because the lyrics have a lot of definition to me.

Thank You Father. Thank You Jesus. Thank You Spirit.

the 100th

This is my 100th post on this blog. It has been 3 years since I made this blog.

I was reading and reflecting on my past blog posts, every single post. I can say that I did grow exponentially from grade 10 but I think my desire for God dropped from January. What happened to the desire of placing God first?

Dayummmm...

I haven't heard the Gospel recently either. I haven't been reading the Bible as frequently either. I'm still stuck on Galatians when I could've started a different book by now. I haven't been listening to online sermons recently. I haven't been hearing God's voice recently either.

I haven't been seeking as frequently as I should.

One word...

"Bad"

What happened to "One Love"?

Education and Career

I don't understand.

My marks stink and I don't know what to do.

I feel so down.

God I need Your help.

I wanted to become a doctor because of You. I wanted to be a healer. I want to heal people physically. However, unlike most doctors, I want to heal people spiritually too. God is this what You want? I wish my heart was 100% in tune with the Holy Spirit right now that I would know what You would want.

I need to learn to appreciate what You have provided with me too. I don't think I completely understand that either.

My Struggle

God uses everything. Everything has a purpose. Purpose of transformation. Transformation to become more like Christ. Christ who Loved us so much. Much more than we are worth. Worthless compared to God's holiness. Holiness that we could never attain until we meet death face-to-face. Face-to-face, we see how much God's Love is so much more. More than death. Death to Life.

God uses my mind. I don't understand why. He changed someone who was an acquaintance to someone much more. I'm not attached in any possible way, physically, emotionally, socially, etc... which makes the situation more mysterious.

Sometimes I have internal battles because I believe that I will place this person before God. I don't understand why this is a struggle when people normally accept their thoughts and feelings for this situation.

I asked God to take this thought or desire away.

He didn't.

He replied, "See how much you have grown?"

I reflected, "Yeah..."

Through this struggle God has taught me to depend on Him more, my position before Him, trust Him, not look for understanding but peace and Love others.

God made me weak with this struggle. God has made me weary with the struggle. God has broken me down with this struggle. He made me realize how much more I needed Him.

God uses him to make me see what I did that does not resemble Loving others. God uses him to make me see that I need to care for other's feelings more. God uses him to make me see if I am causing others to sin.

God uses him to encourage me during times when I don't see a purpose in what I do. God uses him when I don't want him to use him and realize that I need this struggle.

God uses him to transform me.

...so why am I wanting to push this away when it is so beneficial? Why am I going against God? Why do I try to get away from him when I know that God is using him to transform me. Why must I rebel?

Prayer: God I ask for courage and boldness and acceptance. I can't do this alone. I need You. I need to step in Your footsteps that are laid before me and know that it is a safe spot.

Blueprint Answer

WOAH! I was reading "Blueprint" on the bus and God answered my prayers. Right on the first page of the "Foreword" of the book it talked about sharing the Gospel to the homosexual community. Moreover, it talked about being not content with the current state of the church.

I think I will really enjoy this book.

Blueprint Promise and some...

I haven't been reading much lately. I'm going to try to finish half a book this weekend. I kinda promised E.Mak that I would read "Blueprint" by Jaeson Ma. I never actually opened that book and it has been sitting on my shelf since last term. I know that it is about campus revival but that is pretty much it. I hope it inspires me to evangelize more and MORE.

There is something that is bothering me with evangelism. I don't know how to preach the Gospel to the homosexuals. How do you share the Gospel to them without them thinking that you are judging them even though you're not judging them but rebuking them....? Aiya...so confused. This all started with a "X" that plopped on my forehead yesterday...(omy...purity) My floormate was having problems so I decided to pray for him even though he didn't really know what I was praying about (God convicting Him with the Holy Spirit so that he would turn away from his sin). He said he liked when I prayed and something happened and he left. Then I kinda panicked and ran a couple of laps in my head and thought "Yo! Gotta share the Gospel with him!" but I don't know how because I don't think he knows that I know he is not straight. Very headache! And I realized, with the help of K.lam, that they don't know that being gay is a sin. I'm clueless on why they don't think it is a sin. I don't get it...AHHHH! Headache! Headache! Headache!

Prayer: God I pray for conviction when I read the book. I don't know what kind of conviction You will bring but convict me with Your Holy Spirit. I want to move for You and not sit and wait for people to come to me.

Luke 17:1-19

Luke 17: 1-19

Sin, Faith, Duty

¹ Jesus said to his disciples: “Things that cause people to stumble are bound to come, but woe to anyone through whom they come. ² It would be better for them to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around their neck than to cause one of these little ones to stumble. ³ So watch yourselves.

“If your brother or sister sins against you, rebuke them; and if they repent, forgive them. ⁴Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”

⁵ The apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!”

⁶ He replied, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.

⁷ “Suppose one of you has a servant plowing or looking after the sheep. Will he say to the servant when he comes in from the field, ‘Come along now and sit down to eat’? ⁸ Won’t he rather say, ‘Prepare my supper, get yourself ready and wait on me while I eat and drink; after that you may eat and drink’? ⁹ Will he thank the servant because he did what he was told to do? ¹⁰ So you also, when you have done everything you were told to do, should say, ‘We are unworthy servants; we have only done our duty.’”

Jesus Heals Ten Men With Leprosy

¹¹ Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. ¹²As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance ¹³and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!”

¹⁴ When he saw them, he said, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed.

¹⁵ One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. ¹⁶ He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked him—and he was a Samaritan.

¹⁷ Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? ¹⁸ Has no one returned to give praise to God except this foreigner?” ¹⁹ Then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.”

Summary:

1-6:

This is how we should Love others:

- transformation (to prevent others from sinning because of your actions)

- rebuke

- encourage

- forgive one another

....this is our duty to God

If we cannot do this, then ask God for faith because it is our faith that affects our actions.

7-10:

- Once we have done our duty, don't expect our Master to thank us or give us more because He has given us enough. He has given us life which is more than we could ever ask for. He has given us everything we need. We should not stop and be lazy and not do our duty anymore, but continue to do our duty and improve. We can make ourselves better by preventing others to sin through our actions. (Example: the way we dress or prevent ourselves - don't make "little ones" lust or infatuate)

11-19:

Jesus:

- Jesus was compassionate and gentle. He didn't look down on the lepers even though they had a contagious skin disease.

- Jesus healed the leper(s) physically, socially and spiritually

physically = "And as they went they were cleansed"

socially = "Go and show yourself to the priest"

spiritually = (to the one Samaritan) "Rise and go, your faith has made you well"

Leper(s):

- acknowledged their place in front of God = "they stood at a distance" = "Jesus, Master, have pity on us"

- acknowledged that Jesus was God, Master through confidence in voice = they knew He could heal ="loud voice"

Samaritan:

- TRULY acknowledged that Jesus was the Son of God = "One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice"

- didn't ask more from God but thanked and praised Him

- He thanked Jesus and threw himself at Jesus' feet (example of how we should behave when relating back to v.7-10)

- social group shows that not only the Jews can enter the Kingdom of God but anyone can be a child of God.

- 1/10 acknowledged Jesus Christ as God = shows how many people are on the narrow road compared to the 9/10 on the wide road (WOAH! THAT IS SO SMALL!!)

- Jesus was walking between Samaria and Galilee, which is populated by Samaritans or Jews. Therefore in the group of lepers there must have been Jews, since the lepers were made to stay in a remote area together outside of the city. They did not acknowledge that Jesus was the Messiah even though they knew the Old testament and laws better than the Samaritan. Moreover, Jesus had made a healed them (wow humans are so dumb)

Wow so amazing!

Prayer: God, You are so amazing!

Pre-Bible Party

God thank You for Your word. Every time I look at it, it makes me feel so joyful no matter how my day was.

Yesterday was a really crummy day, well a matter of fact today is a crummy day too, but I thank You for Bible Pre-study. It was so fun studying Luke 17: 1-19 with a group of froshies and upper years yesterday. Gosh, I loved listening to the discussions and references in the Bible and analogies. It was really nice to see how excited we were for You. D.Choi making analogies. J.Chia making references in other books in the Bible. J.Chin asking interesting questions. Alisan listening. Ninja laughing at our youth. Confucius sharing about theology and history. M.Cheah giving interesting facts and insight. The passage seemed so simple but it had so much meaning and Love in it. Gosh it was really exciting unraveling every little mystery and secret inscribed into each and every 8pt font-size word in my Love book, Bible.

God I thank You for letting me read and study Your word again today. It flipped my sad day upside down. I feel so much better now. : )

Rejoicing!

Amen.

Spur one Another: Rebuke and Encourage a Love story

To Love, you must hate.

God Loves us so He hates sin.

Jesus Love us so He hates sin.

We Love Jesus so we hate sin.

We Love others so we hate sin.

If we Love others, we must learn to encourage and rebuke.

It is so difficult to rebuke others. It is so difficult to encourage others. It is so difficult to accept their judgement and to know that most of the time they harden their hearts. It is so difficult to truly Love others.

There was so much pain during the times when these words of Love came out of my mouth. It was frightening. Jesus tells us to rebuke one another in Luke 17: 3-4 (the other version in Matthew is better but I don't remember at the moment) It was a very awkward moment but it is really a big step in the relationship between my SIC and I.

I wonder why our SIC and BIC don't rebuke and encourage one another more often. I want people to rebuke me. I know I'm not perfect. I want to stare at my sin in the face and repent and ask for forgiveness from God. I want to constantly be transformed to become the image of Christ. I'm sure other SIC and BIC feel this way too. Sometimes it is painful at first to see what is being placed as an idol in our lives but in the end it is all for the best because God transforms us when we are able to let go of these sins. To initiate putting it to death, we have to identify it first.

AH! REBUKE ONE ANOTHER! Then encourage some (ex: giving some ideas of how to lay sin/idols at God's feet).

Prayer Requests

There is too much to pray for:

- church

- fellowship (frosh cell and ccf and colluni)

- people...(too specific to post)

God there is so many people on the wide road...

Prayer: Thank You God for providing me with an accountable sister to pray with. God we need a revival.