Christian Identity

I didn't post a blog entry last week 'cuz I felt troubled last week about my "Christian Identity". I wondered if I really believed and trusted in GOD. I felt luke warm, not hot, not cold. I felt horrible. I'm also frightened. First of all, I want to get closer to HIM but I felt I was unchanging, not moved. I do believe that he's real and exists but I don't know if he is the saviour of my soul. I'm frightened that I've just realized this and I don't want to stray from HIM. I've heard stories of strong Christians who later on stray away from GOD. I don't want to be like them. I pray that he'll be with me always and that I'll always think of HIM but I'm scared.

I'm kind of happy though, cuz I feel more reasured or better than before about how I felt about GOD being my saviour of my soul. I feel as if I've just crossed the line of being luke warm to being warmer or closer to him...but barely. I've been praying for the past few days that GOD would be with me and he would answer my puzzling question of where I place him. I'm glad that he has sorta answered my question by making the theme of this year to "Christian Identity". It feels as if GOD planned this all along. *laughs*

Yesterday, Kevin came to Dido' with me. After weeks of begging or convincing him to come to Dido', he came. He told me that our fellowship was actually fun or better than the past experiences of fellowship. I hope he comes again next week to the "Thanks Giving Event". He told me that he wants to find a fellowship that suited him the best and I hope that he will find that Dido' suits him. Well...I guess it doesn't really matter which fellowship he will go to but that he would CONTINUOUS-ly go to the same fellowship everyweek instead of constantly changing and HOPEFULLY come to church because he wants to know the LORD better and not because of relationships and friends and popularity and all those other human desires.

- pray for Christian Identity
- pray for Kevin that he will come to Dido' next week
- pray for an AWESOME Thanks Giving
- pray that my dad would have a wonderful HAPPY BIRTHSDAY!!

*laughs*

P.S. Thanks to Abbie, Zara and all others who've tried to convince Kevin to come to Dido and creating the wonderful event yesterday and thinking about the Dido' theme of this year
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THANKS to the LORD!